normal

and so you sit there, wondering what might have been.
 you're pacing up and down thinking, maybe even talking to yourself about a situation that you want more than anything else to have another chance at.
until you realize that after all that pacing you're still alone and you want to scream at someone.
so what do you do? you find someone to scream at...
...well maybe not "scream" but you express yourself, with all your creativeness and stress and brilliance and everything that makes you "you".
so after all this you feel may feel more relaxed...
but you still really want to see an infant eat a ghost pepper.